They say time heals all wounds, but I think that is utter bullshit.

I was told about 2 years ago that I was about to go into the most difficult time of my life but that I could handle it and it would be okay. That I had great friends to lean on and if I focused on doing things that it would all be okay.

well you lied.. not all the way but in ways you lied. Because its NOT better..its been nothing but a royal pain in my ASS since that day and god I hate you for that. I do, I HATE YOU for that. I hate the fact that I’m sitting here writing this and I hate the fact that I wake up wondering what the hell I’m still doing in this town and most of all I hate the fact that you were right! This is the most difficult time of my life and I can handle it but holy CRAP ON A FREAKING STICK did you even realize just how difficult it would be. Because honestly I want to scream most days. Or hit someone or something, I should take up boxing because I bet I would be the champ with all the frustration and anger and grrrr that I have.

So with all this anger you want to know what makes me the most mad..okay here it goes..

I DO NOT HATE YOU ..

WTF is up with that crap..

I am either going to heaven or hell with that one because I can’t figure it out, but what I can figure out is that time doesn’t make this mess better because today is just as hard and difficult as the day before and the week before. I guess however I’m making it . slowly but I’m getting there..

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